As I move into the third week of the new year and hopefully the new and improved me, I have noticed that some things work to motivate me and others do not.
Overall, I am not a negative person, I have my sarcastic moments like anyone else. If someone is being a jerk I might have a few choice words for them but I try to stay on the happy side of things. I don’t do well with being pushed, I tend to push back even if it’s detrimental to myself, I am that stubborn. My mother used to make comments about my food choices, clothing choices or any number of things and most of the time I would listen. If I thought she was pushing me though I would just keep on with what I was doing. Not a great step in personal growth, I realize, maybe I thought she would stop or that I was somehow exerting my personal independence. Regardless of my intention, it’s not the smartest reaction but it is what I do and I try to catch it when I can.
It makes sense then that I tend to react better with positive cues. I am trying to give myself positive reinforcement. I am working on making some goals for weight loss, if I lose ten pounds then I will get my ear pierced and other little rewards as I get closer to my goal. In fact, I might look at my other goals and see if I can’t work on rewards for those, as well. I have a lot to work on but at the same time I think my foundation is pretty solid. It’s taken me years to get to this point, it’s not surprising or unexpected that change is not going to happen overnight.