The last several weeks have been strange, good days, bad days and odd days.  I’ve had some good conversations, mostly with Sully and Faith.  I’ve been thinking a lot about the future and getting there from here.  Tonight, I am going to focus on the positive stuff.

Here is my list of things I want to do someday…

Someday I want…

…my backyard finished.

…to have a clean and organized garage.

…to reach my goal weight.

…to really cut down on drinking Dr Pepper.

…to go to Europe.

…to go to Disneyland Paris.

…to have one of my books published.

…to have a really cool craft room.

…to go back to Disney World.


You might see this post again as I  keep updating my list as I think of things I want to do ‘someday’.


Not enough time…

I spent most of today sitting in a hospital waiting room.  My father in law, TW, is in ICU, he is being treated for kidney failure.  He was having problems with low blood pressure, and that’s why they are keeping him in ICU.

The chairs in the waiting room are very uncomfortable and it’s really cold in there.  Boo is being a trooper and I am very proud of her.  She is working on writing her chapter descriptions for Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix.  She also brought her iPod to play games on and listen to music.

I brought several things to work on, my iPad, the book ‘Hammered’ by Kevin Hearne, my homeschool folder,
 and my writing notebook.  Unfortunately, I didn’t get much of anything done though.  There were so many distractions, text messages, people coming in and out, Martha would come out and chat for a little while and then go back to see TW in his room.  It was a little frustrating, I was gone for six hours and you would think I would have gotten more done that read a couple of chapters of my book.

Once I got home, I was so burned out that I just laid around watching TV for the rest of the evening.  Of course, once I got home I ended up on the phone for almost two hours updating various family members on what was going on.  

I wonder if anyone would notice if I just got in my car and went on vacation…


Outside interference…

Just when I have a plan for the day, something else comes up and my plans are shot to heck.  This has been a continuing theme however, I suppose it’s  time to address it.

Since Sully and I have been married we have been dealing with a mess of family issues.  In the twelve plus years we have been together our extended family has been plagued by a number of medical issues.  We got married in November and soon after the new year began, Sully’s maternal grandfather was diagnosed with Alzheimer’s Disease.   I had just found out I was pregnant.  Grandpa got moved into a facility for special care.

Boo was born the next October and things were okay for a little while.  Then GrandmaV was sick and then Grandpa passed away.  Later that same year, Sully’s dad, TW, was diagnosed with renal cancer, he had his kidney removed and started chemo therapy.  Six months later GrandmaV had been moved into assisted living and she passed away.  That was about the same time TW was given six months to live. (That was seven years ago.)  The next year my mother passed away after a sudden illness and my father passed away sixteen months after that from lung cancer.

TW is continuing to fight but he had back surgery about five years ago where they put in a metal rod to fuse several of the vertebrae in his lower back.  He has had hip replacement surgery.  He’s been on several different chemo medications and had radiation treatments as well as a cyberknife procedure.  Last May he was in the hospital for twenty days.  He had two surgeries in the span of ten days, a fusion in his neck and another fusion to his lower back.  He went into the hospital on May 10th, was transferred to a rehab center and didn’t come back home until July 18th.  He is still recovering from those surgeries getting around mostly with the aid of a wheelchair and a walker.

I had grand plans for this week.  I was going to start my Spring Cleaning this week.  I was going to start my Don’t break the Chain calendars.  Instead I got a phone call from Martha, Sully’s mom, about taking TW to the ER, his remaining kidney was failing.  Family always comes first, the house can wait, so I got dressed and the animals situated.  Boo and I got our bags together and we were out the door in fifteen minutes.  Sully met us at his parents’ house and we all headed out to the hospital.

Can I say how wrong it is that we get our bags together in less than ten minutes?  We are experts at packing stuff to keep us busy while we hang out in the boring waiting room.   Boo has been able to do since she was five or six, I don’t know if I should be proud or concerned.

Bottom line…I am going to be there for my family whenever they need me.  I just wish the house fairies would clean up while I was gone/asleep/daydreaming/just not looking.  I am so not picky…


The Headache Corollary…

My more recent posts haven’t been very exciting or even original.  My allergies have been fairly annoying and this weekend.  I woke up Saturday with a horrid headache and suffered through the next two days trying to fight it off.

Sully, Boo and I spent the weekend having our own marathon of The Big Bang Theory.

Here are some of my favorite moments… click the episode titles for links to YouTube.

The Adhesive Duck Deficiency (Season 3, Episode 8)

^I love Raj’s face at 0:48 seconds, just too funny.

The Earth is moving.

The Psychic Vortex (Season 3, Episode 12)

"Goodnight puny human!"

All clips belong to CBS. No copyright infringement intended.


Fox or the Hedgehog…

I was reading one of my favorite blogs, Jennifer Crusie’s Argh Ink, and came across the Hedgehog Concept.  It’s a helpful exercise to find your path in life, or at least figure out a direction.

It comes from an old folktale about a Hedgehog and a Fox. The Fox comes everyday with a hundred new ideas on how to catch the hedgehog and he tries it all. But for everything the Hedgehog reacts by doing the one thing that it knows best – rolling tight in a ball and protecting itself. The Fox is always out-foxed.  ***

In the exercise you must ponder three main questions –

What are you deeply passionate about?

What can you be the best in the world at?

What drives your economic engine?

The three questions are represented by three circles of equal size.  The three circles intersect each other like the Olympic flag.  Like most Venn diagrams, the area where the circles intersect becomes the focus of the exercise.  That’s the area that tells you

You can find more details here,  Hedgehog Concept: The Three Circles.  I haven’t done this yet, I am waiting for my allergy/sinus issues to clear up and then I am going to give it a whirl.

***(Quote found in the comment section of Wandering Mirages blog)