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Recharge…

Ok, I am starting the third week of the second three week session.  The first two weeks have been interesting, I’ve done great with my strength exercises and my morning and nighttime routines.  I have not been great with my walking or drinking water, walking has actually been a bit of a fail.  There’s been a lot going on but this week I am going to get back to it.

Today there was a fundraiser for my brother in law.  There was a big turnout and I finally got to see a friend that I haven’t seen in about 15 years.  We keep track on Facebook but it was really good to see her in person.  I checked on Sully and Boo when I got home.  Both of them are feeling better but not quite 100% yet.  I ran back out to pick up dinner and by the time I got home I started feeling not so good.  After dinner I took my allergy medication and curled up with a blanket.  I took a short nap and felt much better.

I am sure I am fighting something off, either Boo’s cold or something else that is floating around.  Hopefully, I can get some sleep and recharge my system.

 

Phase 2:  Day 15
 
No walk today, but I really wasn’t feeling well.
 
I did my upper body strength exercises in short spurts when I was feeling a little better in the evening.
 
My morning and nighttime routines are going much better than I thought they would be.
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Peace…

Peace

Today, I am trying to get back to a point of peace and calm.  I am thankful after this week, I’ve felt so weary.  At least now I have a better understanding of my physical reaction to the last couple of years.   I ran some errands this morning and then spent the rest of the day relaxing.  While I was hanging out I got a few things done.  I matted, framed and hung up an art print that I’ve had for about a year.  Later, I cleared off my nightstand and part of my desk.

For the most part though, I rested and let my brain work through things.  After a while, I could feel myself relax and slowly let things go.  I was able untangle some of the chaos in my head.  Getting rid of the stress was a lot easier once I was able to separate all of the jumbled up emotions.  I am finally realizing that hanging on to emotions that aren’t my own will not help anyone.  I can’t help anyone else if I am overwhelmed and exhausted.  I’ve got my own emotions to deal with which is hard enough, without the added weight of stress and worry that is not my own.

Now I need to take the time to let everything level out.  I can usually work this stuff out by keeping myself busy doing mundane tasks.  I find that while I wash dishes, fold laundry or other similar tasks my mind can wander along and unravel the mess in my head.  I did well today resting and doing the little bit of straightening.  I think I did some of the brain work last night while I was reading up on highly sensitive people.  I will have to do more research to see how I can more effectively process all of the incoming information without sacrificing my emotional or physical health.

Week 3 starts tomorrow, I am really hoping to get back to my daily walks.  I enjoy the walks more than just the exercise, they are good for my brain too.  Ten minutes of quiet time for me and my mind.  Here’s hoping Week 3 is great. 

 

Phase 2: Day 14
 
I rested so no walk.  I mean, I planned on walking but resting was apparently more important.
 
I am doing really well with my strength exercises.  Well, I am doing really well in the sense that I am doing them everyday, half the time though I don’t remember to do them until it’s nearly midnight.  Perhaps in the next 3 week section I will set a time to workout, an earlier time would probably be a good thing.
 
My morning and night routines are going great.  I don’t know if I am necessarily getting more sleep with everyone else being sick and all of the phone calls.  I am trying though.
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Satellite…

I’ve felt frazzled all week and to be honest the week wasn’t that bad.  Boo was getting over her cold and Sully ended up with an ear infection.  I am not thrilled about either of them being sick but it’s not the end of the world either.  Those two things along with the several other annoying things that happened this week really should not have bummed me out as much as I have been this week.

Today, I was in the car with my sister and I felt like I was about to come out of my skin.  After a few moments I looked at her and said, “Are you extremely stressed out?”  She said yes, and that she’s so upset about everything going on with her husband.  I told her that she needed to let it go because I felt like I was coming apart.  “I don’t know if I want to cry, puke or slap someone,” I told her, leaving out the part where I really wanted to slap her.   It would have been completely uncalled for but I still think it would have made me feel better.

This sensitivity thing, where I pick up on other people’s feelings, is not a new thing.  I’ve done it since I was a kid, I didn’t really understand it then, not that I really understand it now.  It was kind of freaky when I was a kid and I tried to ignore it as much as possible.  As I got older I’ve found it more and more difficult to ignore.  It seems like the days that I ignore it end up being like today where I end up extremely agitated and emotional.

When I was in college I remember talking to my dad about it.  I had just come back from visiting a friend from out of state and I was telling him how I had discovered that I didn’t really like to fly.  In our conversation, I started picking apart what I meant.  It wasn’t a fear of flying or of heights, or the length of the flight.  It wasn’t being stuck in our seats or the tiny restroom.  There weren’t any obnoxious people sitting around me or a crying baby on the flight.   I finally got around to talking about the plane being full and the constant buzzing.  After talking a bit more I realized the buzzing sound wasn’t the plane or people talking but it was all of the emotions of the people on the plane.  Right away he says, “You’re like a big satellite.  You collect all of these emotions that people are sending out.”  He said that he’d seen me doing that since I was a kid.  It was nice to hear, I kind of thought I was a bit nutty.

This all probably does sound a bit nutty.  I am not saying I am psychic or that I have secret powers.  I am not Jean Grey, I can’t read your mind or move objects with mine.   I’d love to move objects with my mind, if I could.  I mean honestly I think that would be the most awesome power.  I have no desire to read your mind though, you can keep your pervy thoughts to yourself, thank you very much.

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Also, I just discovered that this is a thing that other people experience, it’s normal not a disorder.  I am a highly sensitive person, which anyone that knows me and has seen me cry at commercials or some other random thing already knows.  When I was a kid I was told I was ‘too’ sensitive, that I needed to toughen up.  I did toughen up and I am still highly sensitive.  I am ok with that.

Check out Dr. Elaine Aron’s website to get more information on being highly sensitive.  If you are wondering if you might be highly sensitive there is a self-test here.   You can also check out the November 2012 issue of O, The Oprah Magazine, for a small article and a great version of the test.  This test gathers your answers to give you a result along with some helpful information.

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Phase 2:  Day 13
 
I still haven’t walked.  I need to get back to it soon, hopefully this weekend.
 
I’ve been keeping up with my strength exercises.   My upper body workout is going really well, I am now doing three sets of 12 repetitions.  I added tricep dips this week.
 
My morning and night routines are actually going really well.
 
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Tired…

I don’t know if I am getting sick or if I am just tired from a long week.  Overall though, I feel tired, and not just tired but weary.  I told Sully that I felt like I could sleep for a day and still not feel rested.  I think what I am feeling is overwhelmed and a little bummed out.

I did all of that work over the weekend and the laundry area still isn’t done.  I needed more baskets or bins to put stuff in.  I found some that I think will work well but couldn’t find any in the stores here.  I found a good price at the Jo-ann website.  I ordered two baskets but it will probably be another week or two until they get here.   This week I was supposed to fix the gouges in the wall and touch up the paint.  There was other stuff I was doing and it never got done.  I am really annoyed and frustrated about that.  

sleeping lion

Honestly, I am annoyed and frustrated about a lot of things.  I had a lot of things planned for this week and almost none of it got done.  The house is a mess, not dirty just cluttered and the floors need to be swept.  I had planned on getting the house straightened up this week so that next week I could maybe start on spring cleaning.  My original plan was to start the spring cleaning this week, but I figured next week I could do some extra work and get the Master bathroom and Master bedroom done in the same week.  Now, I will be another week behind.  I am going to make a list of what needs to be done.  If I get to work on straightening the house this weekend and maybe I can get a jump on things for next week.  

I am going to try to start walking again tomorrow afternoon and hopefully I can start getting some of my energy back.   First thing in the morning I am going to get started working on that list.  I think if I break down what I need to do it might feel more manageable.  Feeling overwhelmed is not exactly conducive to getting things done.

It’s late now and I am more than ready to go get some rest.  Tomorrow is a fresh start, a great opportunity to get some extra stuff done.

 
Phase 2: Day 12
 
It’s been a tough week.  I haven’t walked yet.  I am crossing my fingers for tomorrow.
 
I’ve been good about keeping up with my strength exercises.  I am up to 3 sets of 12 repetitions.  Woohoo!
 
My morning and night routines are going really well.  I am doing better about getting to bed at a reasonable time, with Boo and Sully sick though I’ve been up and down most nights.
 
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Huh…

Sully’s ear is worse.  He woke up in the night with it really hurting, I called for an appointment as soon as the doctor’s office opened.  His appointment was for 2:30pm, we arrived early to fill out new patient forms since our doctor has recently changed offices.  We waited over half an hour past the appointment time in the waiting room and nearly 45 minutes in the exam room.  We saw the doctor for about 15 minutes and then we were on our way.  Luckily our doctor is awesome or I would be seriously annoyed.

I saved annoyed for the pharmacy.  I was told it would be about 30 minutes and that I would get a text on my phone.  Boo and I wandered the store and after an hour I finally went back to the pharmacy.  The prescriptions were filled but the assistant hadn’t entered them into the computer so that I would get the text.  So, I left the house at 1:45, dropped Sully off back at home, then on to the pharmacy and finally home at about 6:00.

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Totally not the day I was planning on, but I am so glad that Sully will be feeling better soon.  The doctor put a wick type of thing in his ear because his ear is so swollen.  She prescribed antibiotic ear drops that also have a numbing agent in them, the wick allows the drops to get down to where the infection is otherwise the drops would just sit on the outside.  Of course, with the wick in his ear Sully can’t hear a dang thing and he’s talking really quietly.  Most of the day has been a chorus of ‘what?’, “huh?”, “are you talking to me?”, “did you hear what he said?” and my favorite the complete misunderstanding because we heard something completely different.  It’s been interesting.

 

Phase 2:  Day 10

Since I wasn’t home most of the day there was no walk.  Although I did wander around Walmart waiting for the pharmacy to fill the prescriptions.

I added another exercise to my lower body workout.

My routines are going well.

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Serenity…

This has been a crazy week and today’s post will reflect the time and energy that I have left.

Nathan Fillion and books

I had already been leaning towards loving Nathan Fillion and then we watched the Firefly series.  So, now it’s definite, I officially love Nathan Fillion.  I plan on getting caught up on ‘Castle’ as soon as I possibly can.

I saw this pic of Nathan on Facebook last week and decided I should share.  It’s from an article in Parade magazine.  You can read it here.  It’s a great article about Nathan, his love of reading, his work on ‘Castle’ and about Firefly.

I also found at that Fillion is a cofounder of Kids Need to Read, an organiation that provides books for schools, libraries, and literacy programs.

Kids Need to Read works to create a culture of reading for children by providing inspiring books to underfunded schools, libraries, and literacy programs across the United States, especially those serving disadvantaged children.

*Serenity seemed an appropriate title.  🙂

 

Phase 2:  Day 10

I am doing my best.  No walk, but I got my strength exercises done and I am on track with my routines.

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Uhmmm…

This morning I got a call from Sully about the time that he would have been arriving at work.  He was really upset, he’d stopped to get coffee at the convenience store near work and couldn’t find his debit card.  Now Sully is meticulous about stuff, I mean he has serious OCD tendencies.  If the card was gone then someone else had to have helped the situation.  He had already gone back inside and asked the cashier about it but the cashier didn’t have it.  I got off of the phone with Sully and immediately called the bank to cancel the card.  I was on hold for over eight minutes and I was about to freak the heck out when they finally answered.  I got the card cancelled before any weird charges showed up but they had to talk to Sully in order for him to request a new card.  How ridiculous is that?

Sully hadn’t been feeling well to begin with and decided after losing the card that he should work from home.  I am glad he did, not only because I love having him home but he was feeling pretty rotten by the end of the day.  I’d have hated for him to have to drive home like that.   

And the rest of my day was very much like this …

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I really did try to get things done but there were too many distractions.  

 

 

 

 

 

 

Phase 2:  Day 9

I didn’t walk or do my strength exercises today.   This afternoon I was still tired and sore from all of the construction work over the weekend.  I decided to give myself a day off.

I am still going strong with the am/pm routines.