I am still having a bad week. Sully is at the office again and I think it is bumming me out. I usually get more done when he is at the office but this is so not the case this week. I barely kept up with the laundry, and yeah, I might have been sick or nearly sick earlier in the week. You would think though on a day like today where I felt better that I would be working double time to get caught up. That is so not the case, it just feels like I am in slow motion and the day is just running by.
I know that I miss Sully but I think the bigger problem is the monotony of housekeeping. There are only so many times that you can wash the same clothes, dust the same furniture and mop the same floors week after week without feeling like it is some great exercise in futility. There is no deadline, there is no high fiving at the end of the day when laundry is done. I will have more laundry tomorrow, and next week and the week after that. We all know that this is just a basic fact of life, people make messes and clothes get dirty and someone has to clean it up. It’s the never ending aspect of it that can seem overwhelming. It’s a bit unsettling to think that the kitchen floor will always need to be mopped. The garage will always be cluttered. The lawn will need to be mowed. There is a never ending list of things that I need to do, and that’s a bit unsettling.
There are other aspects that are equally difficult. I used to enjoy cooking but coming up with ideas has turned meal time into a chore. Although I will admit that in recent months I have found some good quick and easy recipes that I have been able to throw into the mix rather easily.
My final complaint has to do with the Stay at Home mom part of things. People assume that since I am home all day that I have nothing to do. Even people that know that I homeschool act like I am free all day. It makes me a little batty. I have stopped answering the phone during the day to avoid most of the stupidity. My favorite comment though is “oh, I couldn’t stay home all of the time like that. I wouldn’t have anything to do and I would be so bored.” Yeah, that’s not really an issue for me…
I am still here, and still writing, just in case you were wondering. There haven’t been blog posts lately due to some computer hardware issues. Mostly it’s my mouse, it’s been having a wandering problem, I move it a little to the right and it zooms off to the upper left. I click on something once and it double clicks and opens something I wanted to move. It’s not the worst thing that could happen but when it happens fifty times in a half hour it makes things a little frustrating.
I have been writing my posts using my iPad and when I finally got around to posting them I, uhmmm, lost them…
Note to self… Do not try to do complicated things when you are tired and/or when your mouse is being skittery.
I happened to have been dealing with both when I tried to move the blog posts. They are on my laptop somewhere, my skittery mouse picked up the files but dropped them somewhere between their place of origin and the destination folder. I know I will find them but bear with me it might take a few days.
I am working on new stuff to post and will try to keep working on that daily. That’s more for me than anyone because let’s face it, no one is really reading this anyway. So, I could metaphorically dance around in jammies and no one would notice.
Woohoo, it’s PJ day! Yay!
My brain is still on losing time. There are so many days that go by and I am busy, busy, busy all day long. At some point I look around and I can’t tell if I’ve really gotten anything done. And again, that was how last year went, running and more running, and there wasn’t a lot to look back on.
Some days I realize that I’ve been working hard with no visible result. Those days I will go work on something that we can all see before dinner. It’s a bit ridiculous, a weird kind of a tap dance that only I get at the end of the day. I kind of tried to do that with last year, I ran around like crazy getting stuff done but it really didn’t change the fact that I was super busy dealing with crap and I didn’t really get a lot done.
Sully’s favorite commercial, “Busy bee, can’t get that!”
Then there are the days that I try and try to get stuff done but every time I sit down there’s is something I have to get up and do… the dog needs to be let out, Boo has a question, the dryer is done, someone is texting me and my phone is across the room, the cat/dog/? is puking in the kitchen… It’s not like any of the things interrupting me are difficult or take time but I have days where I am going back and forth and I can’t get anything done. The thing is I don’t know if I should stop trying to get stuff done and just sit around waiting for someone to need me. I am pretty sure that’s not really an option but on really crazy days I feel like I should do that.
It’s hard enough to get things done on a ‘normal’ day. I start out the day by taking the sheets off of the bed and take them to the washer, start the washer then turn to the linen closet to get sheets but first I decide to take the folded kitchen towels off of the dryer to put away. While I am in the kitchen I remember that I need to take the recycling out, on the way through the garage I see that the dog food needs to be poured into the dog food container. I go to the linen closet to get new sheets for the bed when I hear the washer making noise, I readjust the sheets in the washer and then see that the dog is standing by the back door, after I let him out then I remember to put the dishes away. This goes on and on and at 3:00 in the afternoon I walk into the bedroom and see the still unmade bed. Seriously…
Honestly, I think there is no way around it, it’s a conspiracy against me. Right? No? Yeah, I guess not. It’s still a pain to deal with…