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Listening

I saw this quote on Facebook today and it really made me think.

Live forIt’s an incredible quote and it relates so much to something I was talking about earlier this week that I can’t help but think I need to pay attention to what the universe is trying to say. The conversation was about everyday life, and that I’ve gotten to the point that I feel like I need more goals than getting the laundry done. I feel a bit ridiculous complaining, I have a great home life. Cap is truly my best friend, loving, responsible, supportive, helpful, (I could go on) and the best part?  He makes me laugh.  I am just as blessed with Scarlet, she is smart, caring, a great artist and we have some great conversations. I am completely aware of how lucky I am, hence the guilty stirrings that surface when I get whiny.

Having said all of that, it’s clear that I feel that there is something more for me to do. Anyone who has read a few of my posts knows that I am a writer, or at least, I am attempting to be a writer. Here’s where the quote factors in, what’s holding me back?  What’s keeping me from living fully?  From being that writer that I really dream of being. I was pretty sure that I already had the answers, fear and time.  Those things can be dealt with though.  The questions have been running through my head all night, and I think I’ve finally cornered the problem.  My procrastination with writing is fueled by doubt and disappointment.  In the past, I’ve set deadlines and made plans but outside forces have often interfered, leaving me disappointed and doubtful that I’ll ever actually reach my goals.  I call myself a writer but I treat my writing like a hobby.  Definitely not good.

Clearly, I need to make some changes. This weekend I am going to sit down and look at our schedules and see where I can fit in some designated “office hours”.  It’s time to get serious about this, I love to write, I enjoy the stories that I am working on.  Sometimes I wake up in the morning and immediately think of what’s going on in my current story, excited about what happens next.  I guess, I need to trust that more, follow that joy and excitement.  And just so we all know I am being realistic, I also know that writing isn’t all happy times, there are days that I’ll be slogging through just to get to the end of the scene or chapter.  I am ok with that though, because the fun days will make it worth it.  I just have to keep up with it so that I make it through to the fun parts.

So, I’ll be working on my writing schedule and oh, maybe, actually writing this next week. Also, I am trying to remember to put only one space after a period at the end of sentence.  I remember about every third sentence, hopefully I’ll be quick to adapt.

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Rinse. Repeat.

This is a good reminder and I will be repeating it as often as necessary.  I’ve got a lot going on this week and it would be easy to just let it all go.  I am going to stay on track even though I’d much rather build a blanket fort and eat Nilla wafers.

Stop being afraidSo, I’ve got my plan and I’ve got some ideas for extra motivation.  Wish me luck!  I hope everyone has a good and successful week.  See you Wednesday!

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It’s always something…

I realized Sick.of.Summer.Ca bit of a problem when I was setting up my schedule for writing for the rest of the year.  My novella and full length story are fully set in the summer.  My original plan was to have them finished in May or June, seems kind of out of place to have them finished in Fall or Winter.  Even though it’s been close to 110° all week, I am feeling myself wanting to look towards Fall.  I am sick of summer and I can’t imagine that it would be a good base for writing about summer fun.

It took me a couple of days but I finally decided that I’d write three or four novellas between now and the end of the year.  My goal is to write one novella each month.  Then I’ll go back to the summer projects.  That way they’d be done just in time for summer.  More importantly, I am hoping the feeling of accomplishment after finishing these smaller projects will keep me on track.

I’ve got a couple of ideas that I need to flesh out, I am hoping to get an outline for the first one done this week and get some writing done this weekend.  My plan is to write at least 1,000 words a day, I’ll need to make up for these first few days of September.  It certainly hasn’t helped that I’ve been feeling under the weather since we got back from our vacation in California.  It seems as though I have become allergic to Arizona.

Right now, I am excited about starting something new.  I am holding on to that while I can.  So, the plan for the week is get my outline done and start writing.  Hopefully, I will have a positive update next week.

 

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Writing view

Beach 2014This was my writing view on Friday.  I took my notebook to the beach and I actually got some work done.  It took some work but I was able to organize my handwritten pages and sticky notes.  I finally have an outline and a good jump on the novella.  I can’t wait to get home and get some writing done.  My plan is to get it written and have some people read it by the end of September.

I worked in some time in the water Beach squirreland some relaxing reading too.  I also made friends with this little squirrel, I was calling him Monty.  After checking us out several times Monty stopped next to my chair, I gave him a few small pieces of a Wheat Thin.  He was quite happy and ran back up the cliff side to presumably tell all his squirrel friends how cool I am.

 

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132 days…

Cat computerSo, my computer crashed last week.  Luckily, I was able to do a refresh instead of a full reset.  With the refresh my files were saved but I lost all of my emails and all of my programs.  It took me two days just to get into email, then several days of updating and program loading.  Last night, I finally got my writing program loaded and was able to open my most recent work-in-progress.  I also recovered my email files which ended up being a happy accident.  The whole incident was a wake up call, believe me I’ll be setting up a monthly schedule for backing up my computer.

Clearly I didn’t get much writing done during all of that.  I’ll have to do some backing up with my writing too.  I lost a week and I’ll have to go back to read over everything and get back into where I was with the story.  This week, I am hoping to get my read through done and then back to writing every day.  One good thing is that while waiting in line for my car to be emission tested I was able to work out a few plot points that had been a bit tangled.

Sometimes it feels like there have been so many setbacks and obstacles recently with my writing.  I started this year saying that 2014 was going to be my year.  I was going to get my work in progress rewritten, out to beta readers and maybe even take a shot at self publishing.  It’s been a tough year, and there’s only four months left in 2014, it would be smarter to just do what I can now and regroup for 2015.  Right now I am not feeling all that smart.  I am feeling stubborn and a little mad.  I had a plan for this year and I’ll be damned if I am going to let all of these little crappy things that keep happening stand in the way.

Come hell or high water, I am going get my rewrites done and get it to my beta readers.  I am going to write that novella too.  I’ve got 132 days left in 2014.  132 days, I can do this.  It’s not world domination but it’s a start.

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No problem…

calendar multiYou know how you decide to do something but you’ve got a couple of months to get it done and you’re thinking, no problem.  Then suddenly you look up and that day is looming?  Yeah, that day for me is tomorrow.  It’s a little craft project that I could have been working on while I watched TV in the evenings.  I’ve been wrapped up in my redecorating project though I just didn’t do it.   I kept thinking, I’m almost done, I’ll just concentrate on getting this done and then I’ll move on.  Big projects like these take time and usually about twice as long as you estimate so I should have known better.

Now, I am not only still behind on my redecorating project but also feeling guilty because I didn’t get this crafty stuff done.  It’s for a teacher friend of mine and school starts tomorrow.  Hopefully I can get them in the mail by Tuesday.  Here’s hoping…