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Do what works…

Trapped

Today we will find a second installment of writing conversation from Kevin Hearne on the subject of linear vs. non linear writing.  Kevin shares some of his experience with this issue, a few of Kevin’s writer friends also chime in.

Writing Encouragement No. 2

In writing, the shortest distance to the end is not always a straight line.

Click here to get the full post on Storify.com

Check out Kevin’s website to learn more about Kevin and his awesome books.  

Here are my unpublished and inexperienced two cents…

I’ve finished two of my NaNo novels.  The first one I wrote skipping around and sort of stitching things together.  The second one I wrote in a more linear way and I am finding the rewrites on this on to be much more difficult than the first.  I think the problem may lie with each scene and chapter being so connected to the next.  There isn’t enough of a separation to allow me to wedge my red pen and delete button.  I think it will take me some time to really get a handle on this story and get it rewritten the way it needs to be.

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Transition…

Another week is done, Week 2 of Phase 1 went really well.  I walked over 4 miles over seven days and six walks.  I did my strength exercises Monday thru Saturday adding one new exercise to my routines.  I am quite excited that today is my day off from my exercises.  My upper body exercises were making me sore.  I have until Tuesday to recover.

I am happy to say that I am now entering Week 3.  It’s in this week where I find that I will either stick with something or I will inexplicably drop the ball.  I don’t understand it myself but it’s happened more than once.   I have started the EA Sports Active 3o Day Challenge several times.  It really only has 20 days of exercises because there are set rest days within the challenge.  I have gotten to exercise day 17 or 18 and then just stopped.  The reasons are varied but mostly it came down to the fact that I simply lost my motivation.  I’d miss a day and try to make it up and then I’d miss another day.  That day would stretch into two and then suddenly I would be completely off track.feeding the dog

This time I am not going to let that happen.  I have a plan and I am going to stick with it.  I’ve stayed on track for 14 days and I only have 7 days left.  That’s six days of walking, three days of upper body workouts and three days of lower body workouts.  I can do that, right?  When you break it down like that it doesn’t seem like that hard of a thing to do.  It doesn’t seem like it to me.  I can ignore the fact that after this week is over I fully intend to keep walking and doing my strength exercises.  Right now, all that is important is that I reach my three week goal.  That I make these activities habit, part of my daily life, as integral to my day as taking a shower or feeding the dog.  

This is the point of transition, changing these activities from ideas I want to do and have to remind myself to do into activities that I just do because they need to be done.  I don’t know why it’s so hard to convince myself to take care of me.  I’ll spend time taking care of the bunnies or other critters in the house, I would think it’d be okay to spend equal time on me.  I am ready to finish out this week and this first three week ‘phase’ strong.

Phase 1: Day 15
 
I had a good walk.  I’ve been getting pain in my shins midway through my walk.  I did some online research and it seems that power walking with long strides can cause this.  I am doing some extra stretching and my strength exercises to help my muscles adapt quicker.  In the meantime, I am going to walk a more even pace and shoot for about 12 minutes and 0.7 miles.  I did a pretty good job, I was on my last 300 yards or so when I felt my shins start to think about hurting.  I shortened my stride and was able to finish my walk without it getting out of hand.
 
No workout today but I did get an extended stretching session in before bedtime.  I was really ready for a day off from the strength exercises.
 
Water = 48 ounces –>  I seriously need to be better about drinking enough water everyday.  I am now to the point that I can tell the next day whether I had enough water the previous day.  Who knew I’d ever become one of those people.  🙂
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Starting…

Scary start

I just read this quote and realized how perfect it is for today.  Starting something new can be pretty scary, there’s the fear of the unknown and all of that.

For me, I find that I am hindered by expectations.  It’s fairly normal for someone to have expectations regarding the outcome of a project or plan.  For most people it’s a question of finishing the project or the general quality of the results.  Apparently, I am not like most people.  I find myself creating imaginary scenarios, which makes more outcomes that I have to plan for.

There are a few things that I struggle with starting and sticking to, losing weight and writing.  It wouldn’t be so bad if all I was concerned about was failure.   It goes deeper than that though.

In regards to losing weight, I worry about failure.  I don’t want to fail and possibly gain even more weight.  When I am trying to lose weight I usually don’t tell anyone.  It’s embarrassing, that I need to lose weight, and then I stress about how people will react if I don’t succeed.  I have that poisonous voice in my head that whispers evil things in my ear.  So, I am thinking about all of the things that people would be saying behind my back, how they aren’t surprised that I failed, that I shouldn’t have tried in the first place, that I will always be a ‘big girl’, that either way it really doesn’t matter.  I’ve actually had someone tell me the ‘big girl’ one, I will never forget that one.

As bad as failure is, I worry about succeeding too.  It’s a lot of pressure.  I am not particularly vain and yet, I can’t help but think of how I will look after I lose the weight.  What if I lose weight and I am still not happy with how I look?  The evil voice likes to tell me that it won’t matter, I will be unattractive either way.*  I can hear the “other” people whispering about how it’s so sad that I did all of that work and it really didn’t matter.

OMG, I think I just learned something while writing this.  I am apparently really afraid that I don’t matter.  Wow…

*I am so very lucky that I have Sully.  He tells me that I am beautiful, cute, amazing and other great compliments on a daily basis.  It helps a lot with tuning out the evil voice.

Phase 1

Day 1…
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My goal for Phase 1 is to walk everyday and do my weight/strength exercises six days a week.  I’ve already gotten a jump on these this week so, I am excited to continue on and see some great results.

Boo and I walked during halftime of the later football game.  A brisk ten minute walk, 0.60 miles.  I know we will get faster and cover more distance as we continue to walk everyday.

Today is Sunday, I don’t have strength exercises scheduled today but I am going to do an extended stretching session.

*I am so very lucky that I have Sully.  He tells me that I am beautiful, cute, amazing and other great compliments on a daily basis.  It helps a lot with tuning out the evil voice.


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How about now…

 

It took me a week or so to figure it out but I’ve been a bit down.  Yesterday I went into some detail about the things that were on my mind.  I hadn’t actually planned on getting so detailed but I suppose those were things that I needed to say.  

Today, I am realizing that I am suffering from the side effects of all of that stress.  I feel overwhelmed with the amount of things that need to be done and the fact that my motivation is at an all time low.  

I saw this and it seems appropriate for how I have been feeling.  My depression is over things that have happened in the past.  I know I am not going to just be able to move on without looking back.  I should, however, be able to remember what has happened while doing what I need to today.  

A few years ago we had some issues with our mortgage company.  Through no fault of our own we got caught up in the whole mortgage crisis kerfluffle.  Our mortgage company got sold to another company and in the ensuing confusion our account was seriously messed up.  It took about two years to get it all straightened out even though we had all of the paperwork that was needed to prove our account standing.  In those two years, I hardly slept and I worried constantly.  I still have anxiety about things.  I cringe when our home phone rings, no one but telemarketers and stuff like utilities have that number.  All of our friends and family call our cell phones, it got started after all that time waiting at the hospital and doctor’s appointments.  Going to the mailbox also causes me anxiety, it’s ridiculous really.  I am spending so much energy worrying about things that have not happened or may not happen.  

So, how about now?  Why don’t I just deal with now and let the rest fall away?

 Hmmm, good idea, I will have to work on that.  

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Good habits…

I wrote back in February about how there is a lot of talk that it takes 21 days to form a habit.  You can Google “21 days to form a habit” and get a few dozen results.

In fact, I found this, MamaJenn has a great blogpost about using the 21 days to change your life.  She created a lovely printable to help you keep track.

Mamajenn’s printable –  21 Days to Becoming {Habit Forming Printable}

 

 I’ve thought about my June +1 activities and came up with five things that are important and that I really need to work on.  I’ve got 21 days to make them habits. If I make it through the 21 days having done all five things everyday then I am going to reward myself with something nifty*.  

 Here is my list…

 1.  Drink 3 – 24 oz. tumblers of water EVERY day.

2.  Watch and dance/exercise to an episode of Shimmy, EVERY day.

3.  Write, edit or plan, but work on my writing, EVERY day.  (See the recurring theme?)

4.  Keep up with the weight and strength exercises, EVERY day.

 5. 15 minute project – set timer do as much as I can in 15 minutes.  EVERY day.

Everyday I will report on my daily results.  I’ll keep track of the day and progress below the “21 Days for Me!” banner.   I think I have picked the right combination of activities, health, fitness, personal, and household stuff.  It’s the usual stuff I have to deal with every day, this is more manageable.  I’ve got a plan, now it’s time to get started.

*To be determined later.

Day 1

 1.  Water –  3 – 24 oz. tumblers

2.  Shimmy –  Episode 1  

3.  Writing  –  Outlining

4.  Exercises – Abs/leg workout

5.  Project –  Craft room (15 minute timer)

 

***** I had a difficult time getting the Shimmy DVD to play.  I didn’t give up though and found a solution.  Yay me!

 
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Beginning again…

Here’s my list of things I want to do this month…

  • Stretching everyday – I am turning into a pretzel I am so stiff and sore.
  • Water – drink 3 of the 24oz tumblers every day.
  • Weight workout – hand weights
  • Cardio workout – pick a DVD… any DVD
  • Write – I need to edit my work-in-progress (WIP)
  • House – continue to straighten and organize.

Things have been crazy in recent months.  It’s been hard to keep with stuff I have wanted to do.  So, I am adopting what I am calling my “June +1” plan.  Everyday I am going to add just one thing that I need to do in my routine.

 

 

My June +1 for today is stretching.  
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So far, so good…

I have been enjoying sharing my daily blathering about my plans for the this next year.  I am hoping it will keep me honest and therefore on track.  I seriously don’t want to have to come on here and reveal that I am a complete failure.  Maybe complete failure is a bit much, but still, I don’t want to mess this up.

At this point, I think I have done pretty well.  Oh?  Right, yeah, okay.  Exercise, I was going to do my bellydance thing starting Wednesday and it didn’t happen.   Hmmm?  Yeah, it still hasn’t happened, get over it…  I had two nights of leaky bed drama and today I had errands to run, so sue me.

I did, however, start the Keeping up Appearances plan which I have followed for two days.  I remember reading somewhere that it takes 21 days to form a habit, 21 days, three weeks.  In that spirit, I report that Day 2 of Keeping up Appearances was successful.   This morning I brushed and styled my hair, I checked my earrings and put on a nice shirt.   (I did put on some pants since they weren’t optional for today’s activities.)  While we were out shopping, I bought pretty red flower hair pins and a set of metal daisy barrettes.  Boo and I have decided to share them.

Tomorrow will be Day 1 of stretching and water drinking. — it’s like under water basket weaving, but different.