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Derailed…

Ugh, this has been a week.  I have definitely had worse weeks, and of course better weeks too.   The problem with this week is that there has been so many distractions and so much stress that my schedule and plans have been completely derailed.  

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I haven’t walked all week.  My plans for getting stuff done in the house were pushed aside which is putting me way behind in so many ways.  I am at the point where I need to get one thing done in order to do another thing and both of those things are connected to fifty other things that needed to be done about a month ago.

Luckily today, Boo and I are hanging out with Gramma.  I’ve got a notebook with me and I am making a new plan that will hopefully help me get back on track.  If I think about all of the things that need to be done I get overwhelmed and then I start thinking about all of the time that I’ve lost dealing with stressful situations.  I’ve always known that this train of thought wasn’t particularly helpful.  It’s only recently though that I’ve realized how focusing on what I didn’t get done or other negative thoughts can be somewhat damaging.

I’ve developed a bad habit, every time I finish a task instead of being happy and feeling like I’ve accomplished something I feel like it’s not enough.  My inner voice is saying, ‘Great, you painted two small walls blue, yay you.  What about the laundry?  Did you finish that?  What about the floors?  They need to be dustmopped and mopped.  Have you seen the garage?  Or the third bedroom?’    I hate it, because I finish something and I have about a half a minute of , ‘hey look at that!’ before I hear myself sigh.  I’ve already moved on to thinking about everything that has not gotten done.   I just realized while writing this that by doing this that I’ve essentially been derailing myself.  How can I possibly move forward when all I see in front of me is an ever expanding pile of things that need to be cleaned, fixed or moved?  Ugh, I’ll have to work on this and get back to you.

Phase 2:  Day 6

I didn’t take my walk today but I wandered through Staples and made a good trek in and around Home Depot.

My lower body workout went well.  I found a really good video tutorial on the progression of the single leg deadlift.  On the blog of Coach Kevin Carr, he has several pictures and videos to help with correction and progress from beginner to advanced.  I found it very helpful and I am already seeing a difference in my balance and extension.

My morning and night routines are going better than I expected, especially with how messed up everything else has been.  It’s definitely one of the few things I can control.  Yay me, for sticking to the plan!

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16 Calendars…

That’s probably how many calendars I will need to do this.  I will start with two, maybe three and see how it goes.

I read about this on the ReInventing Fabulous blog (ReFab) and I have been thinking about it since.  It’s a great idea and it works since I couldn’t think of anything else to write about anyway.  It’s been a funky week.  Faith and Sully know what I am talking about I might elaborate someday, I might not.  We will see.

Don’t Break the Chain is kind of a habit forming aid.  You will need a calendar and a marker.  Pick a task or goal that you want to work on everyday, exercise, crafting, reading, whatever and everyday that you do the task you put an X on the calendar for that day.  As the days go by the Xs make a chain… Don’t break the chain.

Now, I just need to figure out what I want to start with, I am thinking two calendars for now.  There are a few things I am working on, organizing, exercise, crafting, yardwork and writing.  Exercise and writing?  I guess, I can add another calendar after March if I need to, right?  

The system can be adapted to different times and tasks, this article, How Seinfeld’s Productivity Secret Fixed My Procrastination Problem, on Lifehacker has more detail.

Brad Isaac’s one on one with Jerry Seinfeld is found in this article, Jerry Seinfeld’s Productivity Secret, on Lifehacker.

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Making up for lost time…

Can you believe I am still packing up Christmas decorations?  Ugh, I can’t and I can see them cluttering up my garage!  Not last week but the week before I decided that I’d had enough of the decorations in the house.  I did a massive search and seizure operation on the house, packing up as much as I could and moving all boxes and what was left out to the garage.  My plan was to use the garage as a final staging area to sort and get the last stuff packed up.  And, of course, that was supposed to happen last week.  Guess what didn’t happen last week?  Ding ding ding!  Yep, you got it!

So, Monday was a holiday and we’d had a friend of Boo’s stay for a sleepover the night before.  We went to the zoo and carried out the kid transfer there.  By the time we got home I was sore and exhausted from all of the walking (and hills) at the zoo.  Working on the garage didn’t even occur to me.  Tuesday I actually got quite a bit done with organizing and stacking the boxes that were already packed.  Wednesday I had big plans.  I even announced, “hey, I am going to go out to the garage for a little while.”  As usual, something else happened and I never made it out there.  Thursday I wasn’t feeling well and talked myself out of sorting.  Friday through Sunday we were busy doing weekend stuff.

Here we are, heading into the third week of January and my decorations aren’ t put away and I haven’t started my spring cleaning.  It’s making me a little crazy.  (Ok, Faith, I heard that.   Fine, it’s making me crazier than I started, ok?)  I need to organize the cabinet under the sink in the bathroom.  My clothes on the shelves in the closet need to be refolded.  I have drawers that need to be reorganized.  I have papers to file and files to go through… the list goes on.  

Oh man, a list.  I need to go make a list…  

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Patience is not a virtue…

Patience is not a virtue that I am always able to maintain.  I am years ahead of Sully in the patience department but I am not nearly as virtuous as I should be.

Don’t get me wrong, I don’t stand in front of the stove chanting “c’mon, c’mon, c’mon’ waiting for the water to boil or dance around in front of the microwave (when we had one) cursing the thirty seconds that were left on the timer.  I usually find something to occupy myself for the small amount of time.

It’s the big things, like waiting for a vacation or the holidays.  I always have a gazillion things to do but there is no way I can occupy my brain for that long.   I find myself folding laundry or washing dishes (yes, Sully does the dishes most of the time but there is the rare occasion that I will take care of some of them) and I find my brain drifting towards whatever thing is coming up.  I make lists and count off days on the calendar, and all it does is make me crazier than when I started.  In recent years, I have noticed that I end up blocking it all out because I just can’t take the waiting.  Then a week before the trip (or holiday) I find myself running around all trying to get it all done.

I see myself doing the same sort of thing with myself this year.   The plan is for this year to be different and of course, I have some preconceived notions about where I will end up.  I try not to get ahead of myself though, but I have already found myself thinking about it and making lists.  It’s time to get myself back to now and what I am trying to do.  Life is stressful enough to derail my path to self improvement.  I don’t have the luxury of walking away or blocking it out this time.  I can’t scurry around a week before New Year’s Day 2013 and think that I will be able to fix what I didn’t get done this year.

  I will still make my lists but I am only going to focus on today.  I can’t control tomorrow or yesterday, all I can do is make the best of today.

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